It's 4.25 pm and I'm here sitting in living room and drinking coffee and eating ...coffee is bit too strong, but yeah. This is my second coffee today. I had stopped drinking it for awhile. After when came out I had something like anemia , because coffee makes it worse. And then I couldn't drink it, because my throat was hurting all the time and hot things made it worse. And then I had surgery and after that I couldn't eat or drink warm things and now.... I am finally feeling better again How cool is that?

I am actually really happy. Because I have God by my side? Yeah! It's actually such good feeling. Whatever happens- it's gonna be alright. He's gonna take care of it. Just because He promised. That's said in Bible:

Passage Matthew 7:7-15:
Ask, Seek, Knock

7 "Ask and it will be given to you; seek and you will find; knock and the door will be opened to you. 8For everyone who asks receives; he who seeks finds; and to him who knocks, the door will be opened.
9 "Which of you, if his son asks for bread, will give him a stone? 10Or if he asks for a fish, will give him a snake? 11 If you, then, though you are evil, know how to give good gifts to your children, how much more will your Father in heaven give good gifts to those who ask him! 12 So in everything, do to others what you would have them do to you, for this sums up the Law and the Prophets.

Just thought to share.

I've been going to school now for 1 week and 2 days. Wohoo! It's a record this semester I think. Haha. Crazy.. I really thought I will take the best of my last school semester ever, but ha, didn't come out the way I planned.
So this week is the last week before the spring holiday. I will go to one camp next week for 4 days, from Mon-Thursday. It's called English Camp, and there are about 20 americans who come here and just chill and teens have opportunity to communicate with them and get better in english, plus there are many other chill-out activities planned. It is organized by christians but not only for them. So I hope it will be fun. How much I wished I had a camera, but I don't.. I have non-digital camera, but haa.. I have 2 rolls of film on my shelf unexposed from last 2 years. Grrrrrr...

After that.. in 2 weeks...FAN:the fire will take place. The event for youth all over Estonia that me and my friend are planning. It's been stressful last 2 weeks doing everything and thinking and thinking.. Now the things are better. We have 3 great bands: Source Of Light(SOL-rock), Band Of Brothers(BOB-ska-punk) and Hannes & Co (worship). How cool is that? Plus we have some dancers and preachers etc. And we are planning to do a dance too, me and my friends, we had our first practice yesterday and one today ..

What else... umm.. my mom is away for a week in Finland doing the drama Heavens gates & Hells flames.. the drama I've been bounded up too.

Uh, my coffee is cold now.. just because I'm writing this and forgot it..anyone likes cold coffee? I do, not a fan of it, but can handle it. lol. It's better to drink it all in one sip so it's all gone faster. cold coffee i mean.

Ohhhh.. Weather is so pretty here now.. Wished I could show you all, but ah come here. Today I went to school before 9 and mmmm... sun was shining..birds were singing..like a beautiful spring day...i am so thankful for that..i soooo needed sun and it is finally back to us... people are so much friendlier and happier..you can see it from their face..estonians get really depressed in winter..just because it lasts sooo long..for half a year..now the happiness returns and we just smile, yeah US the estonians who look so numb and who never smile on street and who are weird. yeah US.
I am actually proud to be estonian. Our country is so highly developed technically. We have e-society.. e-school..e-voting..you know all these e-services.. everything through internet and cell phone..we can park our car by sending a SMS and even get loans by just sending one SMS.. my school grades and homework is all on internet..and so on..i like it.. skype and hotmail and kazaa were made by estonians.. just remember the name E-Estonia
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and there are negative sides:
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People aren't happy in Estonia. Government sucks. And people are poor, because they don't have good paying jobs etc. LOADS of estonians just go oversee countries to get more money. Even my parents too..half of my friends parents work away in other country or far from home. oh..why am i spending my time here writing this..lol..i have no idea..it's just something that is on my mind..
There are only 60% estonians in estonia. 28% russians, 10% ukrainian, finnish, swedish etc.. Our natural growth is zero and over half of the people under 30 live in broomstick marriage.. 70% of the marriages get divorced.. Over half of the familied have only 1 child..
WHY IS THAT SO???
I mean.. we should value marriage..children..family..but we dont.. people don't want to marry and the ones who do get divorced..WHY? Why people take things so granted.. why people give up so fast....

Oh well...my blog started positive and ended negative..hooray..

OMG...GUESS WHAT TIME IT IS... it's 17.08 ...5.08 pm.. I wrote this for an hour haha..
I have my dance practise in 50 minutes..I wanted to take a nap before that but hahaha.. no way..


If you read this..write me how you're doing.. whats up there in your life..i'd love to hear about you...and tell me what you think about what i wrote here today..

Enjoy the beautiful spring Hugs and kisses to you.. mwahhh
if you are a christian then read this song lyrics:
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and tell me what u think.. i find it so true..... sooo true..i've been listening to this song for all day.. and other ones by casting crowns..