..this is what my grandfather had written on the back of one old photo of him, that he gave to his sister. he died when I was 7. year 1995. He was right...only memories remain. Good memories of him.

I haven't written here a long time. Anyway.. Life's been crazy.

July is already over. And August is almost over. Summer is OVER! This sucks BIG! I wish..we had longer summer here. What can we look forward to now? Cold and dark winter! How fun!!! (sarcasm of course)

I joined the au-pair agency already. EF Cultural Care. And I sent my documents..and If everything will go well, I could leave on 12th September already. But I know that probably I gotta wait a little longer. But USA has been my dream for years, and now..doors are open and I can do whatever I want, so hell yeah, why not

I've been up to a lot. lol. not really. i was just at our countryhouse helping to nurse my grandmom for 3 days. yeah..again. i get sick of stuff real fast and yeah i was counting minutes and hours and days to get back at home. it's very tiring there. i was with my sister Gerlika. well, she's fun, so..thats something positive. I couldn't imagine being there with someone else..like some other sister..I'd deff die!! haha. It's good to have at least one awesome sister

What else.. it was my parents 27th wedding anniversary yesterday. so they went away today to one spa for one or 2 days. that's cool. i can be home alone. well, not really. gerlika moved back here from other sis's place and tormi came home too. so our whole apartment is full of gerlika's stuff haha.. i'm in livingroom right now and there are tons of her shoes on the floor..her bags..and if u go to my room..there's all of her make-up (which is awesome haha) and other stuff..and then parents room .where she sleeps now..etc..it's fun! i was like: "i was waiting for you to come back, here's tons of room for you!!" ( i'm home alone a lot). (:

so here I am. alone again. took a bath and straightened my hair. feeling good. but something is missing. i miss hanging out with my friends. and partying. i often HAVE to nurse grandmom at weekends, because everyone else are busy then, and.. most of my friends are here or have free time...at weekends..so...it's sad. gotta sacrifice a lot. well... that's life..right..

well...i'm gonna USE this weekend!!! going to one bday party on Sunday, which will be awesome!!! Finally...I don't wanna work in those next days and I would die if I'd have to go back at our countryhouse right now.. I came home today.my parents are away, one sister always says she doesn't wanna go there so she doesn't help, gerlika went to someone's wedding today..and..so..one more sister left..she went there today..she's never nursed grandmom like this before..i told her how to feed..and i came home..i have no idea if she'll survive there..but i was tired and wanted to come home.. i mean..it's mostly me and my mom and Gerlika who nurse granny..and these other 2 sisters..they barely help. come on, it's not like we really WANNA do that..it's just that..she's my granny..she took care of me when i was a kid..and now it's my turn..well, i hope they will understand that one day. it's not that i know HOW to take care of her or nurse..but sometimes..all that matters..is that you are THERE for her..listen..and care when she cries.

she cried a lot yesterday..and today..and...it's the moment when you feel yourself so helpless..oh well..

i'll stop now..tired of typing.

hope ya'll are good and havin a nice summer.

HUGS